weight loss

For the past year I have been trying to lose weight. After Zoe was born last year, I was so FAT and I felt disgusting. I tried for about 9 months to lose weight without changing my eating habits and only exercising. It just doesn´t work that way! Even though I was at the best fitness level I had been at in a long time, I was still really fat. In 9 months I had managed to lose 6lbs. Pathetic, right? In December of last year I decided to take the leap and change the way I eat. A revolutionary undertaking. And what´s worse, I chose to follow a so-called fad diet. That´s just as bad as buying crap off the home shopping network. So, in the first week of December, during the prime eating season of the year, I started the South Beach Diet. I stopped eating bread, rice, potatoes, sweets and a million other things, and started eating more vegetables, meat and sugar free diet foods (gasp!) And by Christmas I had lost about 18lbs. By January 1st, I had lost another 4lbs, for a total of 22lbs. After that, it was slow going, but in the past 4.5 months, I´ve lost another 20lbs and counting. I have another 16lbs to go to reach my goal weight of 120lbs. The most surprising and, honestly, depressing thing about my weight plunge has been how easy it is. I could have been a thinner person if I hadn´t been so scared to change the way I eat. And I´m getting sick of everyone telling me how much better I look and making such a big g-ing deal about it. I mean, it is a big deal to me, but having everyone (and I mean everyone, not just my friends, but every single employee at the grocery store I go to) basically tell me how great I look now makes me wonder how they saw me before. Was I really that fat? I must have been...and I guess I still see myself as a fat person. I wonder if that will ever change.